I Am Torn, In More Ways Than One

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I just finished my podcast for today and I am not sure that I will post it. I am in a somewhat hostile mood right now and I think that has had an effect on the quality of the podcast. Am I self-censoring or am I using quality control?

That question is central to my decision. I just laid out a very long post last week on why I should not self-censor this site. If I am holding back the podcast for censoring reasons then I am being a hypocrite again. If on the other hand, the podcast is not up to par then I am not being a hypocrite. I am just caring about the quality of my posts. I am torn you see.

In the title I said that I was torn in more ways than one, and that is true. The reason that I am grumpy and hostile right now is that I tore something in my left knee during my workout this morning. I have always had trouble with myleft knee and this is a recurring thing. Thing is, my back is bothering me a bit also today. Can you say ouch?

A good day for me with my back is moderate pain and stiffness. I am never not in pain. Today is a bit worse than a good day. It is definately not a bad day which usually has me unable to walk. I actually do not have “bad back” days any longer as I have learned to control the pain through certain stretches and exercises. Even as it is not a bad day, a moderate pain day combined with the knee has me grumpy as all get out.

So that brings me back to the podcast. What to do? I will probably post it, just don’t be surprised if I don’t.

I can say that other than blowing out my knee, the workout was great! That is a positive to take away from the incident. I am going to have to lay off of the wheels for a bit now and concentrate on other body parts. Such is the life of a powerlifter/bodybuilder type.

Until I decide I will just say…

Be seeing you.

3 Responses

  1. I’d say that the issue is one of quality and not censoring. That’s what it sounds like to me. It doesn’t sound like you won’t post it due to the content, but because of the attitude. And with all that going on I don’t blame you for sounding not 100%. A very interesting post. I hope you make the decision that’s best for you.

  2. Thanks for the comment! Welcome to the site, I hope you enjoy your stay.

    I have decided to post it. I listened again and it is not one of my best. I try to keep my podcasts light and somewhat humorous, and this one is a bit on the serious side.

    It was not as bad as I originally thought though, so up it went. Don’t judge me too harsh on it. Check out my other ones, they are much better.

    Welcome again.

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